inside my chest
there is a nuclear reactor.
so don’t forget,
you are made of water.
your torn pink flesh
cannot mask what you are,
cannot save you from
my burning core.
inside my chest
there is a dying star.
but I am still alive
and I can still destroy you.
you are not you anymore.
not a special strawberry
growing from a crack in the patio.
you are a shit inside a septic tank.
inside my chest
there is a great black hole
that only I have the key to.
you do not have it now.
six months of an acid trip
life is full of revelations now
little epiphanies woven in
to my days
threads so glittering wind
through the halls and
stairwells, turning
cobwebs and dust into
pretty paper chains
“girl,” he says
looking up from the ground floor
“why are you always so
guilty?
let go of that conscience, girl”
I say fuck
I always had the words to
describe myself but
I placed them on the page like
newspaper cutouts
a ransom letter to myself
I never glued them
down, so they blew away
into the wind
and I shut my windows hoping for
sense
I sink into my trip
but I’m not in a daze anymore
not a passive witness
not a powerless princess by
the closed window willing
my hair to grow a little longer
this trip is mine now
I embrace the others
that join me
and kiss the ones that
leave me to soar
and I don’t feel
a stitch of remorse
or pain
or shame
not anymore, girl
garland of pearl 